Wednesday, 30 December 2009

Oh Tannenbaum, so grün sind deine Blätter!

As of late I've become obsessed with emerald green. First I found these huge set of rings, kitschy yet so fantastic. THEN I encountered this velvet blazer at Sisley and it was love at first sight! Everything about it was right - the fit, the origami-like cut of the front pockets, and they way the emerald green velvet made my pale complexion glow. Unfortunately on the day we encountered I didn't have any money on me, so I thought I would come pick up the -30% piece the following day. It had been reduced from 120€ to 85€, after all. Alas, the next morning when I returned with all my pennies and a big smile on my face my blazer was gone, replaced by an unshapely specimen which was way to big for me. I was sad.
The next week, however, I returned to the store and foolishly asked if they might have more of the blazers in stock. To my great surprise they did! A box arrived into the shop from the storage and voila, there lay my lover. Things couldn't have been better.... until - the girl at the register said "Oh, it's your lucky day - it's been changed to -50% off." I couldn't believe my ears! I wouldn't have to spend every last penny of this months budget? But when I heard the other sales lady mutter "No, it's 70% off." I was sure I had gone to heaven. It was too good to be true! With shaking hands and glazed eyes I lay the mere 35€ on the table and quickly grabbed the blazer into my hands, hurrying out of the store before anyone could notice how foolish they had been selling this little piece of beauty to me for such a ridiculous price!

Emerald green velvet blazer: Sisley, Dress: Small boutique in Frankfurt years ago, lace top (underneath): same story, Shoes: my mum's from last years summer collection at Zara, Green Rings: H&M

Sunday, 27 December 2009


Hello everyone! Here is the newest addition to our family! Her name is Pixie, she is only three months old and we rescued her from a dog pound. The poor thing had been thrown out into the snow with her sister. Pixie is probably a Chihuahua and Jack Russel mixture, although we're not quite sure because of her dodgy background. Anyways, it doesn't matter because she is the sweeeeeeetest little puppy on earth. She's so playful and trusting - always wants to come into your lap and give kisses. At night she almost has me falling out of bed because she is so cuddly, I'm afraid to roll over her in my sleep when she snuggles onto my stomach!
It feels so wonderful to have a little one to take care of after the greif of losing Twinky a few weeks ago. Pixie is in no way a replacement - she definitely has her own little personality! But now we can all move on! And I feel so motivated to get my own dog in Finland finally too! Expect a little Dachshund to join the family this spring!
Hope everyone is having a peaceful and gleeful holiday!


Thursday, 24 December 2009

Happy Christmas!

Beautiful photo by Besimo

Dear Santa,

It's been a while since we last talked. When I was little I would write you a letter every year before Christmas and lay it out in the garden for your elves. A few weeks later you would show up on our doorstep, sacks full of wonderful presents. But then you stopped coming. And I stopped writing you. At first I was disappointed - why didn't you want to see us anymore? And what about the presents? But like with everything, I got used to your absence. And eventually I didn't think about the presents as much, either.
This year the thought of presents hasn't crossed my mind once. Don't get me wrong - I've been wrapping up delightful gifts for all the people I love. But I haven't been able to think of anything to wish for myself. There are, of course, always things that would be nice to have. But all those things really aren't that important.
This year has been though. Yes, there have been ups and downs as my life has turned itself over. I have explored sides of myself I didn't even know existed. And gathered much courage to step outside my comfort zone. Yet it's been a really inspiring year - maybe the most inspiring one so far. And along my journey I have come to find more and more, that it is not the superficial things that really matter to me, but those which I already have. Love, friendship and togetherness. Positivity.
So this year Santa, joulupukki, I wish that I can keep all the wonderful things in my life. Let us all stay healthy and alive, and become closer to each other. And let everyone else in the world love each other a little more. And to those who I have not been able to keep, I hope you get along. Say hi to the birds and bunnies in doggy heaven you two (because unlike the human kind, it exists)!

I wish everyone a really happy and peaceful Christmas!

Lots of Love,

P.S. Thank you all for your kind words about Twinky.

Sunday, 13 December 2009

06.06.2000-13.12.2009 Twinky, I love you. RIP.

This is the end
Beautiful friend
This is the end
My only friend, the end
It hurts to set you free
-The Doors

Saturday, 12 December 2009

Age of Stupid

Anyone who knows me personally or has ever met me has probably heard this before. I often - daily, I would say - stop and laugh to myself. I laugh at the world and think, "This is just one big practical joke, right? People can't REALLY be this stupid!" Then I remember - it's not. Politics, consumerism, environmental neglect, stupid wars, animal abuse, human rights issues, Hummers, McDonalds, swine flu, poverty, fascism, racism, anti semitism... it's all actually happening. And I wonder how people can be so blind. How can they go through life not caring one bit about what harm they are causing to their surroundings?

I have a theory by which every self loving person has the intuition to do good to others. Why wouldn't you? It seems logical to want to share that feeling of love and satisfaction with the rest of the world. Alas, it also seems that in our world people are much too busy setting and achieving goals, making money and spending it. There is no time to sit down with yourself to think about what really, essentially makes you feel good. As a result we are left with a feeling of emptiness and anxiety, the cause of which we don't understand, because we can't admit it to ourselves. And as a cure, of course, we only indulge in more work, consumption and headless running about.

I don't want to criticize you - most normal people go about their daily lives consuming, wasting and working without even realizing the harm they are doing to themselves, their fellow Earthlings and to our planet. We are all, from birth, pulled into the cycle of mindless consumption. It is assumed that we should educate ourselves, get a well paying job, get a promotion, buy lots of nice things and pass on this message to our children. Pulling youself out of this easy cycle is a tough thing to do. And anyone who does manage to escape these norms is considered a wee bit mental and naive for starters.

Like Sir Peter Scott once said "I've always believed the greater danger is not aiming too high, but too low, setting for a bogey rather than shooting for an eagle." So with these words let us not surrender before we ever began, but try to change our own lives, even in small ways, to make this world better for everyone and everything, now and tomorrow. Here is why: